Thursday, May 07, 2009

Lonely days

It is so unreal living day to day without Merle. I am in the process of trying to decide what I am going to do with what is left of my life. Merle told me to go on after he was gone, but that is easily said and not very easily done. I have joined some bereavement groups and they are of some help. I have met some other widows, so they really know where I am, and what I am going through. I am learning new things everyday, and as Merle used to say, it is never a wasted day if you learn something new. I am trying to get all of the paperwork squared away, this is necessary and keeps my mind occupied. I will try to keep this blog updated. At my therapist's and other people's urging, I am going to try to make some art and will post here when I have. I close this with the caveat to all who read this, appreciate what you have. Tell those around you how much you love them everyday. You never know when you will no longer have them.


angeltreats said...

Dear Trish, I've been thinking about you and hoped you would post soon so we would know you were ok. I have no advice or words of wisdom but just wanted to let you know you're in my thoughts, and if you ever need a chat or anything, please do let me know - you have my email.


Peachtreeart said...

It has been several months now since my dad died. I try to call my mom as often as possible. She is very lonely, and one day she's fine and the next she's crying and not sure how she's going to go on without my dad. The other day I spent the day in his shirt that he left at my home in ID. It was a lonely day.....

kazumiwannabe said...

I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope you will find what you need to go on. I hope you'll keep drawing and making art and find some peace doing it. Sincerely, Delph.

Stephen Hall said...

Trish, thank you for your kind comments on my site,I dropped by to see what you are up to and really sorry to hear of your loss. A good time to paint and draw - it allows you time to reflect in a good positive way and put some of that love in your work. Tough days ahead so look after yourself X

Anonymous said...

Trish...I know its losing my David a month ago. We're going thru the same process it seems... Estate, whatever else needs to get done. So much and I'm not in the mood for any of it.
I just want Dave to be able to go to a car show once again and enjoy the summer.
I was driving to the store today and thought...I don't like driving myself everywhere ONCE AGAIN. I hate it.
I seems surreal sometimes. When I go to sleep, I wake up and forgot that he was your mourn some more when you come to terms with it again.

Paula319 said...

Hi Trish .. this is Paula in Canton OH..I lost David in April this year and you wrote to me. He had aml and died within 10 months. He was an electrician and I know we had some things in common.

I'm dealing with rheum arth and other issues but trying to move on also.

His parents, who I thought loved me so much, changed after he left everything to me in the that is a whole 'nother animal. I was in shock when I heard things from her best friend. I am over shock and sadness but now dealing and kind of po'd to tell you the truth. They don't know because I don't want their friend in trouble.

It has been an experience. Dave would have been upset.


Barbara said...

Hi Trish - I was unaware of all of this but appreciate your comments and intentions to do art and to post. I wish you the very best.